Hi everyone! Snow here. I’ve been trying to write something for weeks now but am only now starting to find my voice.
S and I are doing alright and are still a couple. S is out of the country with his family and has been for at least a week now. It’s been hard being apart, as we haven’t done that since we.. well, met two years ago. But I had desperately asked for space so that he didn’t have to watch me grieve every morning and we thought that space was easier with freedom, hence our heartfelt goodbye.
I don’t want to delete our tumblr but we are literally going to take our responses day to day. That reminds me though that I totally appreciate you C, who awesomely made the Spankaway Archive.~
I just want to warn you all; when you’re not looking, life gets hard sometimes.
So just.. Try hard. Love hard. Live hard. And if you’re anything like me, try not to run away from your problems or your emotions. I’ve been having a really hard time accepting that it’s okay to feel scared and hopeless for a little while, even in front of people [not just your stuffed animals].
Anyway, I get to be lucky enough to join S in just a few days but for now am preparing the house and keeping myself entertained with The Old Republic. Everything’s going back to normal sort of.
The fact that we had our tumblr and so many supportive people was an incredible back up to helping me resolve that I want to make our relationship work. It helped remind me how much time and effort S has put into making this Our home and Our life and how much I want to fight for that. I just never expected to be fighting myself, so for awhile I felt like a fish out of water.
If people have questions they are welcome to ask about whatever, just please be patient if we don’t get to it quickly, we might not have internet or even be available much for the next few weeks.
But yeah. tl;dr [Too Long; Didn’t Read]: I don’t want our blog deleted, we are trying to work out our problems, we’ll see what happens day to day, ask whatever. Live Long and Prosper, |\ /|